Roller coaster

Hmm. I often wonder why I have a blog. I think at first it was a way to express my feelings without having judgment passed on me. Funny thing is its taken me 34 years to find myself and the one thing the people who know me best will say I lack a filter sometimes. And unless I truly care about you I just don’t give a damn what anyone thinks. Which is not something I could of said years ago.

With that said I guess overall this blog shows that I’m constantly in progress changing and trying to improve. I want to be a better mom, better nurse, better friend…….. Not that all would agree. But it is what it is.

I’ve had lots of ups and downs in life. Mostly in the love/relationship department. I feel very broken and maybe too damaged for anyone. But more on that later. Otherwise I’m working hard at being a single mom trying to do the best for my kids. I’ve found a job that I absolutely love and some amazing friends along the way.

Although I bitch and moan sometimes I couldn’t be a luckier woman to have everything I have in life right now. Not bad for a girl who grew up in a trailer park lol 😉

Teenagers!!!!!!

Ok god love anyone who has a teenager.  I dont know what monster comes down and sucks the brain out of our sweet little darling children. And replaces it with attitude, smartassness (yes i just made up my own word), and the idea that they know it all.  But if i ever run across such monster that does this to our kids i will kill it with my bear hands.  I live in a house with 3……yes count them 3 teenage girls.  Granted only one is my child and is making me totally crazy at the moment!  How did such a sweet child turn into a moody, raging……well you know.  I love her dearly but if the attitude doesnt improve i am going to lock her in a closet until she is 20 something.